by hocksoonyew » Mon Feb 04, 2013 11:26 pm
Today due to job stress and expectation, my anxiety levels surged all time high as
my mind played havoc with all sorts of scenarios. Breadth was short and heart muscle
felt very weak.
After talking to Alex who was kind enough to share some thought on managing the
emotional body, i did CLT 5E Still Form followed by quenching down with elixir water.
What a great relief it was which could otherwise materialized into another episode of
heart attack.
After revisiting this article posted by Angie May26,2012, i realized that my mental body
is being fueled by many negative emotions like ego and psychological fear of losing employment.
What is even more interesting pointed out by Angie was fear generated products are home security,
medicine and insurance plans, the latter and also many investment products are the very bread and butter
of my daily work ! Ironic as it may seem but it struck me now that here i am a CLT junior practioner/learner
and at the same time peddling those products generating fear, greed, ego and associated negative emotions.
This surge in anxiety levels happened on a few occasion since last 3 weeks which prompted myself for
a medical checkup i.e ECG and blood test to check the troponin-I levels which both turned out normal.
The ultimate question is whether am i on the verge of discovery of the truth and power of surrender as
Angie puts it nicely i.e starting to live a fear-free life by making the decision to walk away from this
destructive social institution and start anew in another more constructive enviroment ?
It is a leap of faith and i seek the wisdom and opinion of my brothers and sisters in HG.