by Justion » Mon Aug 25, 2014 9:43 pm
I believe I might've just resolved one of my resentments today, letting go of the thought patterns that have been repetitively playing behind my head for a couple of months.
I've always had an issue letting go of the fact that I was supposed to be part of a project that resonates with my interests, and in particular within an industry that I have strong inclinations to. I was one of the first persons who'd ever known of its existence even before its commencement and was even approached first pertaining a potential partnership just early this year. However, it's been many months since I last heard from my ex-superior and that had always puzzled me to no end. I am unable to let go of the unknown reasons why I wasn't included, and resented the person for his nonchalant, perceived dismissal.
But today in particular, I decided to act upon it. I called him up if I could make a detour to pay him a visit and then we discussed extensively on our current progress. He asked me again if I wanted in, and I positively rejected, not because of my resentments, but my intuition tells me that letting go of this right now is the best thing I could do for myself - part of which is to build up my energies if I am being persuaded again to join this project in the future. If ever, but it doesn't matter anymore.
I noticed a decline in my energy levels after the several hours of interaction. But I can safely say that I finally understood what resolving an issue means. And it does take up some energy.
Learning a little from this, I could be completely wrong about the whole energy decline, or about resolving and letting go of issues and negative programmings, but I am happy to share that if you have faith in building your energy levels, you will be illuminated with solutions on how to let go. And when you're ready, act on it.